Monday 1 January 2024

Everything is Waiting for You!

Everything is Waiting for You
(After Derek Mahon) - by David Whyte


Your great mistake is to act the drama
as if you were alone. As if life
were a progressive and cunning crime
with no witness to the tiny hidden
transgressions. To feel abandoned is to deny
the intimacy of your surroundings. Surely,
even you, at times, have felt the grand array;
the swelling presence, and the chorus, crowding
out your solo voice. You must note
the way the soap dish enables you,
or the window latch grants you freedom.
Alertness is the hidden discipline of familiarity.
The stairs are your mentor of things
to come, the doors have always been there
to frighten you and invite you,
and the tiny speaker in the phone
is your dream-ladder to divinity.

Put down the weight of your aloneness and ease into
the conversation. The kettle is singing
even as it pours you a drink, the cooking pots
have left their arrogant aloofness and
seen the good in you at last. All the birds
and creatures of the world are unutterably
themselves. Everything is waiting for you.


Saturday 11 February 2023

OneRace SuperSikhRun Gurgaon 5th Feb

First run (half marathon) of the year 2023 - One Race Super Sikh Run. Plan was to complete race within 2:45 hrs, however app strava and the official timing didn't match. Some improvement from Nov '22 run though.

Keeping timing aside, initial phase of run felt easy. Thanks to the flat course & overall vibes around. After mid race (from the U turn), it was run walk run. Last 4 kms were pretty hard.


Official timing https://www.runizen.com/p/3b7c258420828e0a6ee0

not too many pics, just a few-



Saturday 24 December 2022

WNC Navy Half Marathon - Mumbai 2022

After a really long break, the run is back. 20th Nov was the day of IndianOil WNC Navy Half Marathon 2022 - 21K Aircraft Carrier Run Category.

The pain got worse due to Ankylosing spondylitis over the years and finally after some medication got some courage to participate in one long run. The original plan of a week long trip got shortened to a weekend trip. Stayed in a dorm room at Empire Royale hotel, it is just opposite to CSMT train station. The to and fro journey was via railways rajdhani train.

With a goal of 2:45 timing bus, completed the run in 3 hours, not a great timing. But it did boost the confidence after so many days of severe pain. When I was certain that I'm gonna get bound to a wheelchair, this run did bring back some hope.


Coming months are going to be hopeful, planning to enrol for more races- one half marathon a month is the goal of year 2023.

not a proud timing, but a good starting point

Next registration done for- New Delhi Marathon on 26 Feb, 2023 with a target of 2:30 💪



Monday 11 July 2022

Lets hold hands

Let this be a still frame,
Let mountain of worries play their game,
see them grow;
way higher than us and we,
Smile under their shadow, unaffected!!

This path may not be the hall of fame,
May not transpire us into a single frame,
with you and I -
may not be able to hold hands, see us grow;
together forever to our graves, contented!!

Let us hold hands anyway; and lock our eyes; smiling!
Say; cheers to this beautiful thing we have together now!
No mountain of worries can defeat;
The way our hearts beats in a single rhythmic beat!!

Snow or not, rain or hot - the Mountain teaches us to be strong - to keep our head high
always!
when nature is so brave - we must! we are just small cog in this mighty nature!

Saturday 2 July 2022

Good things Never Lasts

You carved out the best of yours
Put some lovely wings -
and fly to you like dark cloud pours!

With head high, gazing curls of yours
Put on some lovely legs - 
and gleaming to you like drizzling rains!!

And then deep down in heart of yours
The doomed dubiety of love that,
good things never lasts!

The prelude of that moment, my dear!!

good-things-never-lasts
freshly picked from beautiful nature- and
turned into a lovely hen, my hen!

Sunday 26 June 2022

Curly way to your heart

From the greenery to the barren lands
to the snowy mountains!
wrapping together so many emotions!!

The curly way to your heart,
the entwined road like your hairs-
hiding the beautiful mind inside the curls!
caressing, allow me dear! in your worlds!!

While you welcome some souls in your lap,
let me hide in your curls and whisper songs!
let me adorn your world, let me linger till eternity!!

The pleasure of riding curly roads - holding so much inside one frame - looking back from the top is like hope I had stayed longer in there, if not forever.


Friday 24 June 2022

Solitude

A little corner of joy,
of solitude!

Wonder, when do you allow aliens to knock that door,
of your solitude!

And wonder even, how come you welcome 'em whole heartedly,
in your solitude!!

#littleJoys #solitude



Thursday 14 April 2022

odd one out


the struggle,
of being the odd-one out!
of the fear of acceptance
is real!!!

yet the joy-
of craziness!
of the sense of kinship
is exhilarating my ferried!!!!

#insomnia #kafal #newseason

Sunday 10 April 2022

of New Season!

Like the new blossoms,
of new times, of new season -

The freshness of you - the gentle breeze!
how can I not find you by my side,
in such solitude
my dear!!
 


Friday 20 March 2020

Fighting back

It's always there, a loop
constantly silent at our backyard!

And my dear, the time has come,
to reset... to return back to the base!
to basics!

Lets accept the vulnerability and be brave
And lets build and welcome the new regime!!

#fightingCorona, #socialDistancing

Throwback from the past. on the road

Tuesday 3 March 2020

Dear Nature

From boulder to build~er / up
Dear Nature,
are we beautifying you or f-(beep)-d you up?

#insomnia, #andThen #morningRun
Somewhere in HYD hitech city. saw this on my early morning run

Tuesday 11 February 2020

You, just you; are my world

In search of peace and tranquility
We the wanderers;
Go on places on some lonelier path
To witness life, magic along the way

The magic: a symphony of music, of misty joys, of wet path, of mystic nature
And heart craves to cuddle that magic-
In love; -says, stay right here, a bit more

Stretching my arms, I look up the invisible sky, listen the passing of misty fog by my face, that closes the chilly eyelids, blurring the vision!

I see nothing!

But I feel something, rather someone
Walking slowly towards me, smiling, and those big eyes, You!!
You come closer, kissing my eyes and whisper something beautiful

Suddenly my senses go numb
All I hear 'get off the railing'
I open my eyes
Just to see some curious eyes peeping out of the camera frame!!

#past#throwback#insomnia,
misty morning and this sound and you!

Monday 3 February 2020

New Galaxy

Another milky way galaxy in a parallel world
Dera, i bought you some stars!!

#void, #stars

Finding my galaxy somewhere

Thursday 23 January 2020

'His' control

so high in the sky
hanging with a singly light thread
with the flow flow of air, sometimes against
so vulnerable yet full of spirit-

we are, in this universe; under His control!!

#noFeelGoodFeeling

Such a joy... and my rush to catch something else...


Wednesday 1 January 2020

Articles from web: 01 January, 2020

Good article across Internet today -

The change of India's unicorn brigade - The-Ken

Nirmala Sitharaman unveils Rs 102 lakh crore of infra projects for next 5 years - ET

Turmoil in the banking landscape: Year of reckoning for PSU Banks - ET

Any major sneaky catch in these no-cost EMI schemes? charges and EMI x tenure = cost. So where’s the catch, if any? - Twitter @deepakshenoy

India needs very serious reforms: IMF's Gita Gopinath - DC

Session on “India Policy and Market Outlook 2020” - CFA

What Happened In The 2010s - AVC

National Infrastructure Pipeline - PIB (pdf)

True owners of Tourism Finance Corporation of India - Linkedin

MDR waiver to hit fintechs, payments companies' business model - BS

Understanding of business and market cycles - AC

Presentation on Investing for MBA Students Abhishek Basumallick

This is where teachers are paid the most - WEF

David Attenborough’s worried about this ocean threat - and it’s not plastic - WEF

How India's Water Ends Up Everywhere But India - Bloomberg


For my R/Python learning:-

Web Scraping 101 with Python - Greg Reda blog

Intro to Web Scraping with Python and Beautiful Soup - You Tube


Tuesday 31 December 2019

Year 2019 it was..

Year 2018 ended with a trip to Udaipur and Mount Abu, a perfect start of 2019. However, not much trips after that.

Then work wise, said good-bye to lovely chaotic aamchi Mumbai and moved to Amma Bengaluru, first impression: lovely weather, then did trip to Medikeri Coorg in April, and weekend trip to Wayanad in July, then a all nighter trip to Nandi Hills in October. and couple of home calling trips, a big decision and rest of year went quietly.

Merry christmas. St. Patrick's church mg road BLR
Got a new phone in September, yes iPhone again- 8. Ecosystem syndrome I guess. :)

While entire nation was busy with Article 370,-  a good thing for J&K? I'm not so sure. Lok Sabha election,- Modi wave did put him on the throne once again NRC and Citizen Amendment Bill,- Assam people faced a lot on it at the beginning of the year then at the end of year it was like across the nation, Blame the elephants - this beautiful Quora answer gave the history around it;

Here I was sitting quietly in my single room with ultra speed wifi- trying to see if I could do anything about the chaos across the nation due to NRC or attack on CRPF or banning triple talaq or verdict on Ram mandir Ayodhya or Hyderabad gang rape, and then ISROs partial successful launch of Chandrayaan-2 to the moon BUT I did some progress learning to code with Python and R language, seems like I have still a long way to explore projects or building automation tools.

Health-wise, not so good. Back pain & neck pain was so intense, had to visit a doctor. He told me I have some form of Arthritis- called Spondyo-arthritis due to HLA B27 Positive. Means I am on medication right now, at least for couple of months. Doctor says be more active. Pain? still the same after a month.

Now that the year went by just fine, added just 9 blogs here. I know not much, I plan to write a blog a week but as they say plans are plan right? without execution they are nothing but hope. Also someone said 'hope is a good thing' so let's welcome the new year 2020 with open heart and with open minds.

peace.. 

Saturday 30 November 2019

no fight, yes harmony

Dear, we have come a long way,
into an arduous journey with the nature;
co-existing together in peace without a harm..

put things into perspective I recon;
we have won our surroundings trust
then why fight with your own descent?

I say open your arms;
not to fight but to hold for a path for your own..

#chaos, #protests #nrc #insomnia

such a simple life... somewhere in Nepal, off national highway build by Japanese... from my cycling trips...

Tuesday 15 October 2019

void

the dark web of my existence
scattered petals in thin air of my dream
cold my heart, misty eyes scream
can I ask for a hand to fill the void?

sleepless nightmare, drifting in unknown
how can I live outside your love, my dear?

#insomnia #void

somewhere at the top - Nandi Hills Bangalore

Tuesday 24 September 2019

your own little world!

that backyard far from the noises
serenity or a vibe that makes you
smile and love yourself: that world around you!

hold that thought very close to you my friend!!
and make it That moment
that
gives you hope
gives you strength to follow yourself
blurring dimming all the noises!!

#insomnia #again #hope

Hope is one of the best of best of the things

Tuesday 10 September 2019

pick your struggle

Dear, no matter how beautiful the path is,
there are always struggles.

the beauty is in choosing which struggle to fight for!

#insomnia


pick your struggle.
*from one of the beautiful roads during my cycling trip - in Nepal, from Kathmandu to East-West highway.  

Wednesday 15 May 2019

the soulmate!

they come, they go
the game goes on and on

does meeting someone throws you off the mark?
your hearts pound and hands shake?
he is the one, the soulmate-
you will say for sure

and one day, another wave comes
you feel completely calm
y'll say 'is the one, the soulmate

the game goes on and on!!

#insomnia

the soulmate

Monday 29 April 2019

a gift

this is not beautiful because it is so,
it is because
of you and me
even in absolute wilderness,
like a distant storm you are within me.

like a magic, hits my face this cold breeze
this top, i close my eyes, everything fades away
reminding me that;
when you are afraid, then only you can be brave
when you don't give up, you don't fail

so this beautiful feeling you have showered upon me,
to perceive a thing as beautiful as you,
this is a gift...
i will always carry within me with all my heart with me...

From a tour of Coorg..... at the top of Mandalpatti...


Tuesday 23 April 2019

who am I?

way far from the promises, affairs...
I stand tall with you,
without searching the past for redemption....
in my heart I keep you,
secretly...

You the flower and I the shadow,
of yours or to your...
without knowing you, who am i?
I have never known exactly....

#travels

Travels....

Tuesday 19 February 2019

maze

that part of you that looks for drama -
that part that creates your own maze -
that no one can find that other end.

and that part of you that doesn't agree with your view of the world -
so anxiously you built a maze around you.

my dear, that illusion is a waster of time and energy -
that locking your door on that someone, you dream of rushing back -
that lost moment is gone, never to come back again.

keep yourself open or I say, loose the other end of the maze - 
you never know, hearts gets smitten in crazy ways...

#insomnia, #maze

#Mumbai... lost under the maze of towers..


Wednesday 13 February 2019

Dear mind

Dear mind, such a loner, always on the move
like a wave seeking the shore

While the day ceases, ocean wraps the sun in her lap,
I wonder;
there are people,
who are the journey, not the destination.

How can you live outside this love?

A lovely evening at Marines lines Mumbai..... 

Monday 31 December 2018

awe and immensity

had to leave? guess you had your reasons...
did you say good bye? guess not...
its hard to let go.. isn't it?
it hits you at once, the overwhelming beauty and the unutterable loss....

the only thing you truly love you can't have....

can see; how badly you wish you didn't have to give it up...
but you shouldn't be afraid... not a man like you.
regrets nothing, live fiercely and love even more fiercely..
the end or rather journeys of life as you might only dream of.....

Udaipur.. Pichola lake.

Friday 19 October 2018

Fight with Grace..

When Almighty plays his card on you and
Your self doubts shudders you till your core!

Head to the ocean they say, so i rushed in and
I see the ocean takes care of its waves till the shore!!

Full of motions yet calm, vastness tells you to have faith and
Flow where air takes you, sound only when it gets to its goal.!!!

First ride in Mumbai today. This sound of waves coming ashore is so calm and assuring that you can sit there for like eternity, without any complain.

Monday 9 July 2018

Dream city ride

From Bom Bahia to Mumbai, this dream city has come a long way. The name Bom Bahia, meaning 'a good boy' given by Portuguese in early 16th century is still unexplored by me. I'm finding it very tough to go out to explore. however, today was the beginning of it, went for an early morning cycling spin to south side of Mumbai.

Now the this city with so many names, have brought quite good attention because of Bollywood, is a dream city for many. But my landing here since a couple of months seeing turbulence like anything. The rising prices of housing rent (it seems rent is in Mumbai's blood, from Portuguese times till today it has kept its tradition), look at the narrow bad road, potholes everywhere. Don't get me started on the crowed on the road. Not an ideal territory for cycling.

But it has started, lets see how far we go from here. The goal here is to ride every alternate day. Yes, goals are important.

Should we put question mark there?

Monday 2 July 2018

Match Mismatched!

What you decide to chose in moments like your own or your friends or family's choice, that moments reflects your true personality. I believe there is no good or bad choices here, it just who you are, what your instinct are or upbringing is. The consequences are not relevant here. In some cases they are but if you are solely rely on what will happen, what society will think; thats a compromise you are making with yourself.

See, I was going through something and found a thing that I loved to my core, it was like do or die kind of passion to join The Ranks. While you pursue those dreams; that phase of actually doing it, brings mix of such anxiety, fear or excitement that can't be described in words. It feels like flying, not sure if you gonna get it or not, 'try your best' is all you think of. Unfortunately, that passion was not enough for selection committee. Who to blame here?, no one. It was my passion, my thinking that I was able, ready to join. No one else thought that way. It's just the way things are, you don't get what you pursue, you move on to the next one.

So question is why am I ranting here..., well things are not good right now. That 'mid life crisis' kind of thing is going on, not exactly but kind of. My stars are NOT allying with my surroundings, everything is going against. What I think right for me, no one is agreeing to that. What? Then self-doubts creeps in, everything else seems so confusing. Yes, that... that phase...

Moment of truth.... what do you think what thought everyone's mind occupying?  One of those moments of anxiety and excitement.
One of those moments again...
Well, its my birthday week. I'm guessing getting old is not my thing. I thought life was easy but then now I kind of started believing its not that binary.

Monday 25 June 2018

Let the time be your companion

Let the time be your companion,
and flow with it till eternity!

Clear sky yet foggy.

Monday 18 June 2018

We will never be here again!

No matter how hard we try
to catch up on lost times
remember; 
this moment will never come back again
we will never be here again!

But then,
we can always put a break and look back,
analyse every moment, good or bad
make sure to hold on to good ones and
let go of bad ones- with sweetish tastebuds ofcourse!!


#lookback #positivevibes

Don't ask the crave for sweet on such terrain on a pedal. Wherever I saw Jalebi, I made sure to pack some to each for my rest of the day. It was all worth carrying the extra weight in my pannier.

Monday 4 June 2018

Not a bridge but our arms

Two different worlds we are, divided by 
A huge stream of 
worldly affairs, 
false societal norms! 
But
Deep underneath we both are connected by,
An unbreakable bound of
solid emotions!

Lets just extend our arms, hold till eternity,
Let the world see we are one,
not two souls!!


This is whats going on in my life right now. Indian, in my 30s, unmarried, pressure to get one, and on top of that I want to hold hands of the one who has no intention of holding mine. Pity I know. 

Monday 28 May 2018

Love for you

This is how I would die
into the love I have for you

As pieces of cloud
dissolve in sunlight.

#clouds #sunset

Room with a view. This is how office window view looks on a Saturday working 

Monday 21 May 2018

Rise as red hot


Rise red as hot,
Shine bright, look forward to the day
And go off as red hot,
In the dark, on the way out!
Loneliness comes and goes by,
Time flies never to come back my friend!
Embrace and hold on to it for now,
Go off dull but always, rise as red hot!!

P.S this is how every morning looks like at my hometown, which of course still a  far away from where i live eat make my living. Bad, I know.

Monday 14 May 2018

Let me hold your tears

Once upon a time somewhere sitting idle and whispering something!

Let me offer you my hands full of this sand my dear,
It will hold your tears magically like it has held
this mighty ocean water for ages my dear!

No it won't make itchy eyes like the sand of a storm
And if you wish, will go away without leaving a trace
Or marks on your skin but will ease the pain my dear
Let me offer myself to wipe off all the worries my dear!

I won't let tears roll off shining like a pearl my dear,
Like this wet sand will offer smiles out of your own tears
Let me be this lovely breeze, let me caress your hairs,
Let my arms be your heaven like the one inside you my dear!

#Offer #fingerCrossed

Monday 7 May 2018

Golden Glitter..

Shining Golden Temple - Amritsar

The Guru said,
"Consider the Granth as my physical representation.
Of that, have no doubt."
Such are the Guru Words.
Spirituality, humanity, service, langar and gurbani,
I could see it all, but then couldn't feel a single thing!!

And then my closed eyes see you smiling in glittering holy water,
You; commanding me to be in the moment and pray..
'This place has given life to many, be one of them and obey'
But then, even in such divinity, why can't I let you go away....
Like the Guru, I say,
You or nothing, Of that, I have no doubt!!!

#legends, #goodVibes #goldenGlitter

Monday 30 April 2018

You Make me Smile

At it full glory, Bangla Sahib Gurudwara Delhi..

You have given my smile back somehow
I am smiling thinking of you and wonder how
I am in love with you again? That I
can't wait to see you again tomorrow!

The way visible you are in my eyes,
You are shining alike deep within my hearts!
I am like an electron circling you tirelessly,
The bug has come back again in my smiles!!

The spell of emotions has recurred again somehow!!!

Monday 23 April 2018

Be the Rising Sun

Be the Rising Sun

The obsession never goes away,
Harder you try, the more you get trapped in a loop!

The best is to think of it like,
I do not deserve any of her moments, not at all worthy!
Be the rising sun, burn yourself yet brighten everyone's life,
If not all someone somewhere thanks you for your selflessness,
Obsession is life now, live with it but gracefully!!

~~ #morningThoughts

Monday 16 April 2018

Home!


They say home is where heart is,
But my heart sees you in these pure waves
So am I in your heart?
Or just homeless searching you in this heaven

I almost see you waving at me from the edge
Such crystal clear splash hitting the shore
So I just love the idea of you?
Or you really rule my heart; I see here my home

They say fear is for the brave, live is for the loving
Without fear life loses value, nothing real without love
So am I loveless? admiring the view instead i see you
Or just a visionless, living-in-past a sissy wanderer

The blue sky, the cloud, the barren land so clear
My voices echoes and returns back to me like you laugh
But I gasp it all; like this life is on a free fall
Or since the love left, I have nothing left to fear

They say this heaven like place is angels abode
I wish to known a door just to ask why my angel left me
So let me camp here and wait
Or take my soul too; I have rolled miles to seek her love

I am here now; let me close my eyes
and embrace all of this beauty spreading my arms
so this mystic air blows her hair on my face
Two souls meet, hands on my hand and we dance!

And just there; I find my heart, my home!!

~~#PangongLake, #heaven #findingLove

Monday 9 April 2018

A Confession


























I want to share a secret with you today
I have a confession to make!
I want you to be part of my life, period!

Now, don't get started
That,
I say same thing again n again all the time
I have no other things to say at any point of time
And on top of everything
I write the damn thing all over all the time!

But my dear,
We follow our passion, don't we?
We make that passion all our life, Don't we?
We fear losing ourselves, yes, I fear death!

Now let me say this out loud,
I fear holding your hand and say 'I do'
A vision runs parallel to my life to remind me
What If.....
What If..

Passion and fear go hand on hand my love!
Even though,
I want you more that anything else in this world and
I want to grow old with you looking into your eyes,
Such a treasure you are to me, close yet way too far.
But do I have the audacity to say you so? I doubt!
Thats my dive into oblivion my love!!


Monday 2 April 2018

Movie review - Before Trilogy

Over the long Easter weekend, I re-watched the Before trilogy movies- Before Sunrise, Before Sunset and Before Midnight. I am not sure how many times I have watched these movies till now, but every time I watch it, it feels like a fresh one.

Before Sunrise is like a teenage movie, when you are young and fearless, excited about the possibilities of life ahead, the world seems endless. Two strangers meet in a train far away from their motherland, talks happens and they see a spark between them. Which leads them to all night walk in a city, endless talks about everything under the sun and sleep over the night at a beautiful park appreciating the moon before they depart to their respective homes next morning promising a meet same date 6 months down the line.
Here Before Sunrise approves our thinking that the opportunity once lost can be found again, the peoples we meet and bade good-byes may be met again, the beautiful moments can be lived again. Before Sunrise is like a good hope.

Then comes Before Sunset; you knew that she is a perfect girl but you just let her go. First, the things happened so fast confusing whether the first meet was an infatuation or fascination or taking it for granted that our paths will certainly cross again. But the world reality is different, without having a connection, a medium to talk to each other, you are actually stuck with her image. Years later you just can't let her go away from your head and you want the memories of those moments back into your life.
Your path definitely cross again after some 8 years of gap. Now in Paris, you stroll the streets of Paris before parting away to respective lives, Thats Before Sunset. The talks, dialogues are so much real and well thought-out.

And the last in series- Before Midnight. Now they 2 are back together, in their 40s with kids. This is real after marriage life, the problems, fights, age definitely makes you a little bitchy and cranky. The ability to bear other in normal voice level long gone, you fight all the time over all the little things but at the end you realise that its all part of life, its not a fairy tale.

Such a nice screenplay, both are good acting is nice. So much relatable. I think I'm past 'Before Sunrise' phase and heading to 'Before Sunset' phase.

Highly recommended.

Links-
Before Sunrise screenplay Here
Before Sunset screenplay Here
Before Midnight screenplay Here

Monday 26 March 2018

Throw away THE box and give me freedom

The roads I travelled, like I owned it!
I was the king, it was all mine, mine alone!
No matter how bumpy the ride was,
The air I inhaled, felt on my face was pure!

The freedom was my companion all along!

Out there, in the wilderness, I felt I belonged!
Like I’m wandering with my folks inside my home!
Smooth like skin was the simplicity of my ride,
The ups n down, the sweating was like parts of breathe!

Like I’m the universe, rest all just fades away!

And now, like always, the circle is about to complete!
Here at the beginning again, in the chaos called city life,
Lost in cubicles, churning big worlds like career, money!
Nothing seems like my own, even though I owned it!

Everything is in ‘a box’ from sunset to dawn!

O! My companions in misfortune, give me my roads back now!
The ride, the air, and the freedom in above all!
Life is simple but everybody complicates makes it a puzzle!
Give me my moments back; here, I’m not at all at ease!

Let this ‘box’ to fade away, let me my freedom, my universe!!

~~#TravelBug #Impossible #Chaos


A click from my cycling trip in North India
This is by far the best click I have of my cycling trip. I like this pic, just by looking at it I can feel the air, the lovely smell and free from all the chaos. Only thing I wish if I had a company, I would have clicked such pics a lot. 
Spiti, Leh-Ladakh is really a heaven. One should try to visit the area once in his lifetime, its worth it. No trees around but you still feel so freshness, the cold itself is so much rejuvenating.

A must visit, put it in your bucket list!