Match Mismatched!

What you decide to chose in moments like your own or your friends or family's choice, that moments reflects your true personality. I believe there is no good or bad choices here, it just who you are, what your instinct are or upbringing is. The consequences are not relevant here. In some cases they are but if you are solely rely on what will happen, what society will think; thats a compromise you are making with yourself.

See, I was going through something and found a thing that I loved to my core, it was like do or die kind of passion to join The Ranks. While you pursue those dreams; that phase of actually doing it, brings mix of such anxiety, fear or excitement that can't be described in words. It feels like flying, not sure if you gonna get it or not, 'try your best' is all you think of. Unfortunately, that passion was not enough for selection committee. Who to blame here?, no one. It was my passion, my thinking that I was able, ready to join. No one else thought that way. It's just the way things are, you don't get what you pursue, you move on to the next one.

So question is why am I ranting here..., well things are not good right now. That 'mid life crisis' kind of thing is going on, not exactly but kind of. My stars are NOT allying with my surroundings, everything is going against. What I think right for me, no one is agreeing to that. What? Then self-doubts creeps in, everything else seems so confusing. Yes, that... that phase...

Moment of truth.... what do you think what thought everyone's mind occupying?  One of those moments of anxiety and excitement.

One of those moments again...

Well, its my birthday week. I'm guessing getting old is not my thing. I thought life was easy but then now I kind of started believing its not that binary.